To live BEYOND

If I would’ve have been asked, it is as a great poet once said ” better to live a full life short than having a long life not to have had lived at all”. Perhaps, as I look back, see all things necessary and that they are relevant. I still could not forget the man who I refused to take his ” lucky charm” out of it’s expensive demands that time but he said

I was watching the movie Beyond and it greatly reminded me of The Fountain by Hugh Jackman but they do differ in perspective. If I would’ve have been asked, it is as a great poet once said ” better to live a full life short than having a long life not to have had lived at all”. Perhaps, as I look back, see all things necessary and that they are relevant.

I still could not forget the man who I refused to take his ” lucky charm” out of it’s expensive demands that time but he once said, before we parted, that even without it, my aura was enough to indicate my unquestionable resilience. Second was the man who reiterated the possibilities that I would find a work abroad, which I did and had been employed for my first paid job.

Being sick mentally and not opting to seek medical assistance was a life- long journey I voluntarily injected myself into. Taking my time and investing efforts to heal myself was a great opportunity to spend a lifetime. There were prices I have to pay for that no doubt, such as loneliness and frequent episodes of despair but as long as I still do enjoy the warmth of sunshine on my bad days, I find life not so hard for me.

The necessity of meeting my asshole doctor had afforded the greatest change I ever did for myself and I dare say, it was worth it.

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